Sorry about not updating for the past few weeks. Our final trip we were time-pressed and tired, so I didn't have much of a chance for blogging.
Quick amusing story about our final backpacking trip:
Our second day we were hiking in a spot where it was pretty much straight steep on both sides up and down, so not really a good chance for an escape route. As we were walking, I heard a rumbling sounds, like rocks falling. I looked up and at first thought a bear was running down the mountain to attack us. It actually turned out to be a cow BARREL ROLLING down the mountain, with its legs straight out. And it rolled for a long time.. I would have had enough time to get out my camera and video it if I hadn't been so shocked. Then he landed on the path stunned for a second and just walked right back up the mountain. I felt bad for him, but it was seriously one of the funniest things I've ever seen in my life.
Our final week we had a good amount of worksite stuff to finish up, so we made a big checklist and put it on the wall in order to motivate ourselves to finish strong. I honestly was having doubts that we would finish it all, but through a lot of hard work, enthusiasm, and prayer we made it.
It was pretty hard to say goodbye to Montana. There were so many little kids at VBS that I had fallen in love with, and knowing that we were just leaving them here in their rough home situations was really rough on me. It was sad to leave a place that was my "home" for 6 weeks.
It was even harder to say goodbye when I left Chicago. I had to leave Steven, Beth and Abby, who I had become so close with while we all worked together. They motivated me to push myself and encouraged me in the rough moments. We shared so many good times and several harder times, and worked through everything together: worksites, backpacking, buying food weekly, car breakdowns, trials, memorizing Scripture. I also had to leave several of the other interns who I became close with through intern training and staff members at LeaderTreks whom I really admire. It was a hard plane ride home.
And then a week after I got home, I left once again to move back to Baylor. It's been hard transitioning back to the "real" world. I had such an amazing time this summer. I have never felt as invested in as I did this summer. I have never lived so intentionally. I was renewed spiritually. I learned what it looks like to sacrifice for Christ. But honestly it's been hard sacrificing myself back home with all the comforts and distractions. So I'm just going to have to constantly remind myself what God did IN and THROUGH me this summer, and I'll start by sharing the most important things I learned this summer:
- God is really really really really really really HUGE! And I can't understand that. I went through some doubting and some rough patches this summer because this fact really scared me for awhile. But now it's cool to think that He who rules the world is the only one big enough to take care of everything. And, I encourage you to listen to Louie Giglio's talk, "Indescribable." It rocked my world this summer.
- Being a disciple of Christ is HARD. It takes sacrifice and it's not always fun. Read about the Rich Young Ruler in Mark 10:17-31 or about Counting the Cost in Luke 14:25-35. But it's oh-so-worth it. God wants us to experience life, and life to the full.. and being his disciple is the way to do that.
- Community is so important! They hold you accountable, provide encouragement and support, help you discern where the Spirit's leading, and it's just plain fun to have that solid group of people.
- Memorizing Scripture is life-changing. Romans 12:2 talks about being transformed by the renewing of our minds, and that renewal happens by soaking our hearts and minds in the Word. Scripture is living and breathing and constantly can guide us. As I memorized Scripture this summer, I saw my attitude and mindset improve dramatically. It really helps you to become more and more like Christ.
- Living life with a purpose, mission, and intentionality is so much cooler than just floating along aimlessly. When you set goals, you can achieve your dreams and can do really HUGE things for God when you're living with a mission mindset.
This summer was more impactful and life-changing than I could ever possibly describe. Thanks for following my journey and providing a lot of encouragement and support. If you want to hear more specifics about what I did this summer, let me know and we can get together and chat.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
Never Underestimate a Champion
It's interesting how just when you've started to become comfortable with something, you get pushed out of your comfort zone once again. After a few times of teaching Growth Journal and Bible Study during our nightly Team Time, I felt like I had a pretty good handle on how to do it. After our last trip, it seemed like building those deeper relationships with students and taking advantage of teachable moments was getting easier. I had almost gotten to the point where a lot of the things I was doing were very mechanical, and not as challenging as they had been.
And then came Team #6. An all boys team. Eleven high school boys, out of which nine are entering freshman year. Talk about a radical shift from the juniors and seniors we had been working with the past two trips. My first Growth Journal this week was a struggle, as I didn't think to change it so this new group would be able to relate. Conversations were, and still are, a struggle. My mind doesn't always think of topics that are especially interesting to high school boys. It's hard to go deep with them, because a lot of times they don't even know what they're thinking. Motivating and challenging them has been quite a challenge in itself. They have been quick to make excuses and slow to take responsibility. They lack the drive we've seen in some of our older students.
BUT.. it's been good. One of the ten leadership principles we talk about at LeaderTreks is "Never Underestimate a Champion." It's kind of the idea that people can do more than we sometimes give them credit for, and that we shouldn't give up on them. And that's definitely beginning to happen with this team. I'm learning not to give up on people, and to pour encouragement and challenge into them in order to motivate them to their full potential. Over the past few days, our students have slowly begun to recognize that they haven't been doing things to the best of their ability. They've become more honest in admitting when something isn't going well. Last night was an incredible turning point for all of them. They realized that they only had one day left on the worksite and at VBS to make a difference, and they took that to heart. When I got up to help with breakfast, I noticed that all the guys were up and already working on one of our work projects... an HOUR before breakfast was even ready. We usually start work at 9, and they were out there at 6:20! They finally worked enthusiastically and completed the work by the time devos started at 8. I was so impressed and so proud of them. Later today, their VBS was a TON better than it had been the previous days, and it seemed like several of the little kids were impacted by the love they received from our students. It will be interesting to watch how they continue to grow the next 4 days as we backpack and as they each have a turn leading us and keeping us from getting lost and getting to the campsite on time.
Tomorrow is our third and final backpacking trip this summer. It's weird to think that after four hikes, I may never see this same trail again. I've gotten used to some of the trail and know it pretty well. And I love it. I'm going to have to soak it in a lot these next 4 days, because I will definitely miss it.
If you could, please pray for energy and protection as we are backpacking, and that we would all be able to enjoy God's beautiful creation and grow even closer to Him.
And then came Team #6. An all boys team. Eleven high school boys, out of which nine are entering freshman year. Talk about a radical shift from the juniors and seniors we had been working with the past two trips. My first Growth Journal this week was a struggle, as I didn't think to change it so this new group would be able to relate. Conversations were, and still are, a struggle. My mind doesn't always think of topics that are especially interesting to high school boys. It's hard to go deep with them, because a lot of times they don't even know what they're thinking. Motivating and challenging them has been quite a challenge in itself. They have been quick to make excuses and slow to take responsibility. They lack the drive we've seen in some of our older students.
BUT.. it's been good. One of the ten leadership principles we talk about at LeaderTreks is "Never Underestimate a Champion." It's kind of the idea that people can do more than we sometimes give them credit for, and that we shouldn't give up on them. And that's definitely beginning to happen with this team. I'm learning not to give up on people, and to pour encouragement and challenge into them in order to motivate them to their full potential. Over the past few days, our students have slowly begun to recognize that they haven't been doing things to the best of their ability. They've become more honest in admitting when something isn't going well. Last night was an incredible turning point for all of them. They realized that they only had one day left on the worksite and at VBS to make a difference, and they took that to heart. When I got up to help with breakfast, I noticed that all the guys were up and already working on one of our work projects... an HOUR before breakfast was even ready. We usually start work at 9, and they were out there at 6:20! They finally worked enthusiastically and completed the work by the time devos started at 8. I was so impressed and so proud of them. Later today, their VBS was a TON better than it had been the previous days, and it seemed like several of the little kids were impacted by the love they received from our students. It will be interesting to watch how they continue to grow the next 4 days as we backpack and as they each have a turn leading us and keeping us from getting lost and getting to the campsite on time.
Tomorrow is our third and final backpacking trip this summer. It's weird to think that after four hikes, I may never see this same trail again. I've gotten used to some of the trail and know it pretty well. And I love it. I'm going to have to soak it in a lot these next 4 days, because I will definitely miss it.
If you could, please pray for energy and protection as we are backpacking, and that we would all be able to enjoy God's beautiful creation and grow even closer to Him.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Distractions
I'm sorry it's been so long since I posted! We've had quite a few things thrown our way the past two weeks, so I haven't had much of a chance for any updates.
Things are going well. We just finished with a group from Bloomington, IL. There were some great conversations that I was able to have with several of the girls and really encourage and challenge them. VBS was great and the kids who came were so cute. Work projects were a lot of fun: we poured a sidewalk for one of the churches we work with and then painted a shed, started building a playset, and did some weeding for the other church we work with. Backpacking went a lot better this time, which is an encouraging thought for our third and final wilderness adventure which starts in about 5 days. I'm loving my time out here. I absolutely love the other staff I'm working with and the students who come on the trips. It's sad to think that I only have two more teams and then I'm done. I wish it was longer.
As I stated above, we've encountered a few unexpected things in our time here.
- Getting kicked out of the library out of the blue meant Abby and I are now sleeping in the balcony of the gym. Not much privacy, to say the least.
- One day we couldn't turn on the lights in the gym, and when they finally came on we couldn't turn them off when it was time for bed = Abby and I slept in sunglasses that night.
- We couldn't get internet access until recently when we'd been expecting to have it for the whole summer.
- The sand and gravel we needed for concrete didn't get delivered when it was supposed to, so we had to put that project on hold.
- The night before backpacking we discovered that a good amount of our wilderness food had been stolen.
- Steven (trip leader) got randomly got pretty sick two days before backpacking.
- Beth (Steven's wife) was sick the next day.
- Our van started making really weird noises when Abby and I went into town to get some last minute supplies. We were 40 miles from "home" and had no cell phone service.
- One of the church's vans got stuck in mud, so the youth pastor, Abby and I had to try and push it out, then go look for help since it was just the three of us.
- Abby felt sick while backpacking and was not in good shape yesterday.
- We had to replace our brake pads in the van.
- Last night we discovered a group from the Native American Assembly will be staying in the school for several days. This was the first we had been informed of this.
The four of us have joked, saying to each other "Satan", every time something goes wrong. We even named one of the corners of our sidewalk "Satan's corner" because it took FOREVER to get the right way and things kept going wrong. But as much as we've joked about Satan being behind all of this, I think there's a lot of truth in it.
One of our leadership principles that we teach students is "Focus Precedes Success" and we talk about how when we're not focused on our goals and not that committed, then it's going to be a lot harder to achieve anything. One illustration that Abby and I used when we taught it was a Jenga game. We had one group really focused trying to build as high as possible while another group told them the wrong way to do things and just yelled general nonsense. The group that was supposed to be focused wasn't able to reach their goal because they got so off task by listening to those who were distracting.
We feel like a lot of these unexpected things that have happened are meant as distractions to keep us off our task of impacting this community and the students who come our way. It has been very tempting to give into frustration with each thing that has happened, but luckily we've been able to make it through by continually encouraging and supporting each other.
If you could be praying for us through this time, we would all really appreciate it. We are all worn down and trying to recover for our last two teams. It's been hard, but it's been good. There's nothing else I would have rather spent my summer doing.
Things are going well. We just finished with a group from Bloomington, IL. There were some great conversations that I was able to have with several of the girls and really encourage and challenge them. VBS was great and the kids who came were so cute. Work projects were a lot of fun: we poured a sidewalk for one of the churches we work with and then painted a shed, started building a playset, and did some weeding for the other church we work with. Backpacking went a lot better this time, which is an encouraging thought for our third and final wilderness adventure which starts in about 5 days. I'm loving my time out here. I absolutely love the other staff I'm working with and the students who come on the trips. It's sad to think that I only have two more teams and then I'm done. I wish it was longer.
As I stated above, we've encountered a few unexpected things in our time here.
- Getting kicked out of the library out of the blue meant Abby and I are now sleeping in the balcony of the gym. Not much privacy, to say the least.
- One day we couldn't turn on the lights in the gym, and when they finally came on we couldn't turn them off when it was time for bed = Abby and I slept in sunglasses that night.
- We couldn't get internet access until recently when we'd been expecting to have it for the whole summer.
- The sand and gravel we needed for concrete didn't get delivered when it was supposed to, so we had to put that project on hold.
- The night before backpacking we discovered that a good amount of our wilderness food had been stolen.
- Steven (trip leader) got randomly got pretty sick two days before backpacking.
- Beth (Steven's wife) was sick the next day.
- Our van started making really weird noises when Abby and I went into town to get some last minute supplies. We were 40 miles from "home" and had no cell phone service.
- One of the church's vans got stuck in mud, so the youth pastor, Abby and I had to try and push it out, then go look for help since it was just the three of us.
- Abby felt sick while backpacking and was not in good shape yesterday.
- We had to replace our brake pads in the van.
- Last night we discovered a group from the Native American Assembly will be staying in the school for several days. This was the first we had been informed of this.
The four of us have joked, saying to each other "Satan", every time something goes wrong. We even named one of the corners of our sidewalk "Satan's corner" because it took FOREVER to get the right way and things kept going wrong. But as much as we've joked about Satan being behind all of this, I think there's a lot of truth in it.
One of our leadership principles that we teach students is "Focus Precedes Success" and we talk about how when we're not focused on our goals and not that committed, then it's going to be a lot harder to achieve anything. One illustration that Abby and I used when we taught it was a Jenga game. We had one group really focused trying to build as high as possible while another group told them the wrong way to do things and just yelled general nonsense. The group that was supposed to be focused wasn't able to reach their goal because they got so off task by listening to those who were distracting.
We feel like a lot of these unexpected things that have happened are meant as distractions to keep us off our task of impacting this community and the students who come our way. It has been very tempting to give into frustration with each thing that has happened, but luckily we've been able to make it through by continually encouraging and supporting each other.
If you could be praying for us through this time, we would all really appreciate it. We are all worn down and trying to recover for our last two teams. It's been hard, but it's been good. There's nothing else I would have rather spent my summer doing.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Challenge and Growth
The Little Bighorn trail is a challenge. Hiking 18 miles and climbing 7000 feet in four days can be rough. It didn't help that I had just gotten over a cold. It didn't help that I was running on very little sleep. It didn't help that I barely knew anyone else on the trip.
But it was worth it.
Tuesday was our first day. The night before, as you can see in the previous post, I was pretty anxious and tired, but still excited. After driving to Big Horn National Park, we had to do some car shuffling. Usually when you hike you go in a circle back to your cars, but our trail was just straight up, so we had to take our cars to the trail end and then drive one back down to the trail start. I volunteered to drive up and down the mountain, which was quite the experience. I'm usually pretty timid about driving but it was a ton of fun and just to see all the sights along the road was awesome. Plus, there was a lot of snow left on the ground as we reached the top so that was really cool to see in the middle of summer. Once we got back to the bottom we started hiking. I was fine for awhile and enjoyed some conversations with the students. BUT, then we started the inclines. That killed me. My attiude shot down and I got really angry at God for placing me on the trip. He knew that I had a hard time hikinig last year. He knew that I had just been sick. He knew that I was exhausted. But he was still making me do the stupid hike. I think I even asked for death a few times. Melodramatic much? I know. Finally Beth (my trip leader's wife), really challenged me to rely on the Lord's strength and reminded me that I was placed here for a reason. She also told me to only think about today, and not about the fact that I am doing this hike two more times. She really motivated me to push forward and just helped so much. The rest of the day was fine. Got to the campsite, set up, enjoyed wilderness food.
Wednesday the team got off to a pretty slow start. We ended up leaving around 10:30, only after a huge herd of cattle came through. So we were stuck behind cattle for a lot of the day. Slow and smelly, such fun. Finally it looked like we were making some good progress. And then, it started raining and thundering and the lightning was going crazy. So we had to stop and take cover in some trees and got to stay in lightning position for awhile. Several of the students were pretty scared, so Abby (fellow intern) and I started singing some hymns and worship songs. That was pretty cool, singing about how God controls the lightning as the storm was raging around us. Finally the storm passed, and it was SO cold, so we decided to high tail it to the campsite. By this point my feet were getting pretty blistered and tired, so the HUGE hill we had to go up to get to the campsite was not looking very fun to me. But we finally made it. The campsite for the second day is absolutely AMAZING! There's a big mountain on one side with waterfalls coming down it, and then on the other side there's a ton of pine trees as far as you can see. It was so fun to be there and see those sights again.
Day three is typically known as the hardest day of the hike. It's a ton of incline, plus people are just worn out from the previous days. I had been dreading it since the day I found out I was going to be in Montana for the summer. Once again, it started out fine. We stopped way too early for lunch, but apart from that things went well and I had a lot of fun with the students I was near playing games and chatting. The sights were breathtaking and really motivated me to keep walking. However, as the day wore on my blisters started rubbing really badly and I was having trouble walking. The inclines took everything out of me, and I was just in a bad mood once again. Finally, one of the students took my tent from me which took away a ton of weight from my pack. That helped so much and I was so thankful for the student's willingness to serve me. We finally made it to the campsite and I had never been happier to sleep on the ground.
Day four (Friday), we hiked out. We had to take care of the car shuffling once again, so one of their adult leaders, and Abby and I hiked out early together. We left at 6 in the morning, expecting the hike to take 2 or 2 and 1/2 hours. We made it in less than an hour and a half. We were SO proud of ourselves. I really enjoyed hiking that early. The temperature was wonderful and it was a lot less stressful hiking with just three people instead of a team of 18. We got the cars all together and waited for 45 minutes before we finally heard cheering as the students ran to the trail end. It was really cool to see the smiles on their faces as they realized that they had finally made it to the end.
After that we drove to Billings and got to shower!! Yay!! Best shower of my life. Then enjoyed an awesome meal at Fudruckers. The best part of Friday night was our final team time. I had a really hard time connecting with these students. I came halfway through the trip, so I missed out on the first few days of getting to know them. They also were just really closed and you really had to push to get anything significant or remotely deep out of them. So I had been a little discouraged and just felt like I hadn't made any difference. However, during our encouragement circle where each student gets encouraged by two of their peers and one adult, I saw the walls break down. I have never seen so many high school boys cry before. Their tough exterior finally cracked and I felt like they were really touched by what they had experienced on the trip. To actually witness this was really powerful. It just reminded me that I should never give up hope on anybody. God may wait until the very end to work in their hearts, but I should never assume that they are incapable of being impacted. The students also demanded to encourage us as staff, and honestly I really needed that. I had felt like I was not needed on this trip and that I had made no impact, but the two students who encouraged me proved me otherwise, and I was really touched by that.
This past trip really taught me a lot about how I respond in situations and showed me a lot of areas in my life that I want to improve. And that's the beauty of challenge.. it spurs on growth and helps you become transformed into who God has designed you to be. As hard as it was, I do not regret what I was able to experience. I learned so much and I am confident that God is going to continue to challenge me in order to bring growth into my life.
Pray requests:
- Team #4 arrived this afternoon: transitioning into this team and being willing to get to know them.
- Rest and renewal
- Continued bonding between me, Steve, Beth and Abby
- God to work in HUGE ways on the Northern Cheyenne Reservation: many to turn from their false religion and be brought into the light of Christ
Thanks for bearing with this long post! I am so thankful for all of your support and prayers!
But it was worth it.
Tuesday was our first day. The night before, as you can see in the previous post, I was pretty anxious and tired, but still excited. After driving to Big Horn National Park, we had to do some car shuffling. Usually when you hike you go in a circle back to your cars, but our trail was just straight up, so we had to take our cars to the trail end and then drive one back down to the trail start. I volunteered to drive up and down the mountain, which was quite the experience. I'm usually pretty timid about driving but it was a ton of fun and just to see all the sights along the road was awesome. Plus, there was a lot of snow left on the ground as we reached the top so that was really cool to see in the middle of summer. Once we got back to the bottom we started hiking. I was fine for awhile and enjoyed some conversations with the students. BUT, then we started the inclines. That killed me. My attiude shot down and I got really angry at God for placing me on the trip. He knew that I had a hard time hikinig last year. He knew that I had just been sick. He knew that I was exhausted. But he was still making me do the stupid hike. I think I even asked for death a few times. Melodramatic much? I know. Finally Beth (my trip leader's wife), really challenged me to rely on the Lord's strength and reminded me that I was placed here for a reason. She also told me to only think about today, and not about the fact that I am doing this hike two more times. She really motivated me to push forward and just helped so much. The rest of the day was fine. Got to the campsite, set up, enjoyed wilderness food.
Wednesday the team got off to a pretty slow start. We ended up leaving around 10:30, only after a huge herd of cattle came through. So we were stuck behind cattle for a lot of the day. Slow and smelly, such fun. Finally it looked like we were making some good progress. And then, it started raining and thundering and the lightning was going crazy. So we had to stop and take cover in some trees and got to stay in lightning position for awhile. Several of the students were pretty scared, so Abby (fellow intern) and I started singing some hymns and worship songs. That was pretty cool, singing about how God controls the lightning as the storm was raging around us. Finally the storm passed, and it was SO cold, so we decided to high tail it to the campsite. By this point my feet were getting pretty blistered and tired, so the HUGE hill we had to go up to get to the campsite was not looking very fun to me. But we finally made it. The campsite for the second day is absolutely AMAZING! There's a big mountain on one side with waterfalls coming down it, and then on the other side there's a ton of pine trees as far as you can see. It was so fun to be there and see those sights again.
Day three is typically known as the hardest day of the hike. It's a ton of incline, plus people are just worn out from the previous days. I had been dreading it since the day I found out I was going to be in Montana for the summer. Once again, it started out fine. We stopped way too early for lunch, but apart from that things went well and I had a lot of fun with the students I was near playing games and chatting. The sights were breathtaking and really motivated me to keep walking. However, as the day wore on my blisters started rubbing really badly and I was having trouble walking. The inclines took everything out of me, and I was just in a bad mood once again. Finally, one of the students took my tent from me which took away a ton of weight from my pack. That helped so much and I was so thankful for the student's willingness to serve me. We finally made it to the campsite and I had never been happier to sleep on the ground.
Day four (Friday), we hiked out. We had to take care of the car shuffling once again, so one of their adult leaders, and Abby and I hiked out early together. We left at 6 in the morning, expecting the hike to take 2 or 2 and 1/2 hours. We made it in less than an hour and a half. We were SO proud of ourselves. I really enjoyed hiking that early. The temperature was wonderful and it was a lot less stressful hiking with just three people instead of a team of 18. We got the cars all together and waited for 45 minutes before we finally heard cheering as the students ran to the trail end. It was really cool to see the smiles on their faces as they realized that they had finally made it to the end.
After that we drove to Billings and got to shower!! Yay!! Best shower of my life. Then enjoyed an awesome meal at Fudruckers. The best part of Friday night was our final team time. I had a really hard time connecting with these students. I came halfway through the trip, so I missed out on the first few days of getting to know them. They also were just really closed and you really had to push to get anything significant or remotely deep out of them. So I had been a little discouraged and just felt like I hadn't made any difference. However, during our encouragement circle where each student gets encouraged by two of their peers and one adult, I saw the walls break down. I have never seen so many high school boys cry before. Their tough exterior finally cracked and I felt like they were really touched by what they had experienced on the trip. To actually witness this was really powerful. It just reminded me that I should never give up hope on anybody. God may wait until the very end to work in their hearts, but I should never assume that they are incapable of being impacted. The students also demanded to encourage us as staff, and honestly I really needed that. I had felt like I was not needed on this trip and that I had made no impact, but the two students who encouraged me proved me otherwise, and I was really touched by that.
This past trip really taught me a lot about how I respond in situations and showed me a lot of areas in my life that I want to improve. And that's the beauty of challenge.. it spurs on growth and helps you become transformed into who God has designed you to be. As hard as it was, I do not regret what I was able to experience. I learned so much and I am confident that God is going to continue to challenge me in order to bring growth into my life.
Pray requests:
- Team #4 arrived this afternoon: transitioning into this team and being willing to get to know them.
- Rest and renewal
- Continued bonding between me, Steve, Beth and Abby
- God to work in HUGE ways on the Northern Cheyenne Reservation: many to turn from their false religion and be brought into the light of Christ
Thanks for bearing with this long post! I am so thankful for all of your support and prayers!
Monday, June 28, 2010
Transitions
Hey everyone!
So I am now up here in Montana. Got here Sunday afternoon after a short, but great time at home where I got to be a part of my best friend's wedding. So that was awesome.
The transition home was hard. I loved my time at the Navajo Nation and I really enjoyed working with the staff. While at home, I really missed the work and getting to know students and just how intentional each day was. But I was extremely thankful for the rest, especially with the nasty cold I came down with.
Because I missed the work so much, I just assumed that coming up here to Montana would be no problem. However, after only 4 hours of sleep, 2 flights, and a 2 hour drive, I was pretty tired. So jumping immediately into the trip without really knowing what was going on was really difficult. I just felt really lost the whole rest of the day. On top of that, I'm working with new staff so getting used to how they run trips compared to the last staff was really interesting.. but it's been so great just to experience different personalities and leadership styles.
I am enjoying my time in Montana so far. Love the staff, love the scenery. But, I am absolutely EXHAUSTED. Was running on 4 hours of sleep Sunday and got about 6 Sunday night. And we are about to head into the wilderness. This makes me a little nervous. Not only was I sick most of last week, but also I've hardly gotten any sleep. And the hiking just always takes so much energy. So I will be praying big time for the ability to make it through the hike. I am so so so excited to see the scenery again, but I'm still a little anxious about my current physical ability. So I'll definitely have to rely on God's strength.
I would appreciate it so much if you could be praying for me the next few days.
- Hiking Tuesday through Friday: need strength, energy, positive attitude
- Relationships with students: got a late start with this team since I came a few days after their trip started; just pray that God would work through the conversations and that I would be reminded that it's not about getting students to like me, it's about spurring them on to a passionate relationship with God and helping them discover their leadership abilities
- Bonding between me and the other LT staff: I already really like the other staff, but with everything that needs to be done I haven't been able to get to know them very well yet
Thanks for reading! Sorry for the rambling. It's pretty late and I still need to finish up some packing. Look for another update once we make it through the wilderness.
So I am now up here in Montana. Got here Sunday afternoon after a short, but great time at home where I got to be a part of my best friend's wedding. So that was awesome.
The transition home was hard. I loved my time at the Navajo Nation and I really enjoyed working with the staff. While at home, I really missed the work and getting to know students and just how intentional each day was. But I was extremely thankful for the rest, especially with the nasty cold I came down with.
Because I missed the work so much, I just assumed that coming up here to Montana would be no problem. However, after only 4 hours of sleep, 2 flights, and a 2 hour drive, I was pretty tired. So jumping immediately into the trip without really knowing what was going on was really difficult. I just felt really lost the whole rest of the day. On top of that, I'm working with new staff so getting used to how they run trips compared to the last staff was really interesting.. but it's been so great just to experience different personalities and leadership styles.
I am enjoying my time in Montana so far. Love the staff, love the scenery. But, I am absolutely EXHAUSTED. Was running on 4 hours of sleep Sunday and got about 6 Sunday night. And we are about to head into the wilderness. This makes me a little nervous. Not only was I sick most of last week, but also I've hardly gotten any sleep. And the hiking just always takes so much energy. So I will be praying big time for the ability to make it through the hike. I am so so so excited to see the scenery again, but I'm still a little anxious about my current physical ability. So I'll definitely have to rely on God's strength.
I would appreciate it so much if you could be praying for me the next few days.
- Hiking Tuesday through Friday: need strength, energy, positive attitude
- Relationships with students: got a late start with this team since I came a few days after their trip started; just pray that God would work through the conversations and that I would be reminded that it's not about getting students to like me, it's about spurring them on to a passionate relationship with God and helping them discover their leadership abilities
- Bonding between me and the other LT staff: I already really like the other staff, but with everything that needs to be done I haven't been able to get to know them very well yet
Thanks for reading! Sorry for the rambling. It's pretty late and I still need to finish up some packing. Look for another update once we make it through the wilderness.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Time for an Update!
Hello!!
It feels like it's been forever since I left for Chicago, but at the same time I can't believe I'm already done with two trips. So much has happened in the past three weeks, and as I'm back home for a few days I thought you guys would enjoy a little update. (warning: I wrote A TON, because there was nothing I could possibly leave out)
The day after I arrived in Chicago, we drove to Baraboo, Wisconsin (Devil's Lake area) for some intern training. Talk about some intense, challenging, and encouraging times. I was reminded of the need for and beauty of community. As interns, we had to work through a ton of initiatives that tested our leadership styles and skills. It was really hard and frustrating at times, but the great bonding that happened between all of us was so great. It was truly amazing to see 11 different people from all over the country with different personalities and life stories come together as such a strong team because we were united in our purpose. What a picture of what the church should be like! We are all created differently, yet our purpose of glorifying Christ holds us (or should hold us) together as one body. It was so encouraging to be around a ton of people who passionately love God and are committed to doing anything for Him. The reason I most love being involved with LeaderTreks is the chance to work with some truly inspiring people. Another great thing about intern training is the honest evaluation we went through. I learned a ton about myself and both my strengths and weaknesses. And I seriously needed that. My eyes were opened to some areas in my life that I need to open up to God and let him improve.
One thing that I was extremely challenged by is how little time I have spent in the Word. The reason I have lost my focus so often and turned to worldly things is because I have not worked on storing up Scripture in my heart and letting it transform and renew my mind. Phil Krause, one of the LeaderTreks staff, has an incredible knowledge of Scripture; he can pull out a verse for pretty much any situation. He said that he works on memorizing one piece of Scripture every two weeks and that ever since he's started doing that he's noticed how much it has improved his life. That's what I want. I want to experience the transforming power of Scripture in my own life. So I have set a goal for this summer to memorize a different piece of Scripture for each trip, and to continue this once the summer ends. It's been really cool so far.
As staff, we all memorized Matthew 9:37-38 during intern training: "Then he said to his disciples, 'The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field."
Then, my fellow intern, James Futrell, encouraged us as staff to memorize Scripture together during our time in Arizona.
The first week was Colossians 3:16-17: "Let the Word of Christ dwell in you richly, as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."
Our second week was James 3:17: "But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere."
It has been awesome to have this Scripture in my heart as I've interacted with others. I have already started to notice some fruit from this, so it will be really cool to see how much more God works as I immerse myself in his Word.
We roadtripped from Chicago to Arizona... it was long, but a good time of bonding with my fellow staff. Once in Arizona we had to get all prepared for the students who were coming 2 days later. It was really interesting to see things from the intern side rather than the student side. I have loved being an intern so far. I love the chance to have meaningful conversations with the students I meet and to encourage them to reach for their potential. It's been hard at times to refrain from jumping in and showing them how to do things. I have to keep reminding myself that leadership is a process and that I had to go through that exact same process they are now experiencing and that I've grown so much from it. It's been really neat to watch students grow on the trips. As they are challenged, they really step up and take ownership. You can see the confidence build in them throughout the week, and they become more vulnerable and spiritually aware. Now, obviously, this doesn't happen with every student. But it is so encouraging to watch the students who do grow a ton. That's one of the most rewarding aspects of my work: seeing students realize that God has created them to fulfill his will in their own unique way, and that by resting on his power they can do GREAT things, even though they are young.
We got some good work accomplished. Painted the back patio area of the church, so it looks very nice now. Also painted the front steps and sidewalk with a sealant so that the rain wouldn't deteriorate it. Built a retaining wall around the basketball court because all the dirt has been running off and eroding, so we were able to do something to help them keep it from washing away. The kids in the Navajo Nation LOVE basketball, so that court is a huge ministry area for them. We also did some concrete pours to help with water runoff so that the sidewalks wouldn't get muddy and dangerous and so that the foundation wouldn't erode from runoff. Our final project the very last day on the worksite was to pour the foundation for a new church about 12 miles away from where we had been working. It was so physically intense.. we had to hand-mix over 50 batches of concrete in 4 hours, but we did it! It's truly amazing to know that thanks to some of our work, there will be a church soon in an area that is hugely unreached and broken and deeply in need of the Gospel message.
The two weeks of VBS were also very fun. Getting to know some really, really sweet little kids was so fun, and to watch their faces light up as they got in the vans to come was so heart-warming. A lot of them really don't have that much to entertain them. There are a lot of absent or abusive parents in this area, and SO much poverty. It really feels like you're in a different world out there. So a lot of these kids just want to get away from their houses for awhile, and we were able to provide them with a safe, fun escape where they got to be surrounded with Christ's love, which they may never experience at home.
Overall, my time in the Navajo Nation was extremely challenging and definitely stretched me. I'm still trying to process a lot of what God taught me and what he's just beginning to work on in me. I have a few days at home before my next trip, so I'm hoping to just get to spend some alone time and listen to the Lord for awhile.
I currently have a HUGE prayer request: My last day on the worksite, I started out with a cough that only intensified with the cement dust and sand flying everywhere, and I ended up losing my voice for the most part. I thought everything would improve once I got home, but I've felt really sick the past two days. Wedding festivities begin Thursday, and the wedding is Saturday, so I would really love to get well before that so I can fully enjoy it and participate in everything. Also, on Sunday I fly to Montana and we start hiking on Monday, so I would really love for my body to have a lot of rest and refreshment before all that starts. So if you could just pray for healing and renewal, I would really appreciate it. Thanks guys!
It feels like it's been forever since I left for Chicago, but at the same time I can't believe I'm already done with two trips. So much has happened in the past three weeks, and as I'm back home for a few days I thought you guys would enjoy a little update. (warning: I wrote A TON, because there was nothing I could possibly leave out)
The day after I arrived in Chicago, we drove to Baraboo, Wisconsin (Devil's Lake area) for some intern training. Talk about some intense, challenging, and encouraging times. I was reminded of the need for and beauty of community. As interns, we had to work through a ton of initiatives that tested our leadership styles and skills. It was really hard and frustrating at times, but the great bonding that happened between all of us was so great. It was truly amazing to see 11 different people from all over the country with different personalities and life stories come together as such a strong team because we were united in our purpose. What a picture of what the church should be like! We are all created differently, yet our purpose of glorifying Christ holds us (or should hold us) together as one body. It was so encouraging to be around a ton of people who passionately love God and are committed to doing anything for Him. The reason I most love being involved with LeaderTreks is the chance to work with some truly inspiring people. Another great thing about intern training is the honest evaluation we went through. I learned a ton about myself and both my strengths and weaknesses. And I seriously needed that. My eyes were opened to some areas in my life that I need to open up to God and let him improve.
One thing that I was extremely challenged by is how little time I have spent in the Word. The reason I have lost my focus so often and turned to worldly things is because I have not worked on storing up Scripture in my heart and letting it transform and renew my mind. Phil Krause, one of the LeaderTreks staff, has an incredible knowledge of Scripture; he can pull out a verse for pretty much any situation. He said that he works on memorizing one piece of Scripture every two weeks and that ever since he's started doing that he's noticed how much it has improved his life. That's what I want. I want to experience the transforming power of Scripture in my own life. So I have set a goal for this summer to memorize a different piece of Scripture for each trip, and to continue this once the summer ends. It's been really cool so far.
As staff, we all memorized Matthew 9:37-38 during intern training: "Then he said to his disciples, 'The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field."
Then, my fellow intern, James Futrell, encouraged us as staff to memorize Scripture together during our time in Arizona.
The first week was Colossians 3:16-17: "Let the Word of Christ dwell in you richly, as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."
Our second week was James 3:17: "But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere."
It has been awesome to have this Scripture in my heart as I've interacted with others. I have already started to notice some fruit from this, so it will be really cool to see how much more God works as I immerse myself in his Word.
We roadtripped from Chicago to Arizona... it was long, but a good time of bonding with my fellow staff. Once in Arizona we had to get all prepared for the students who were coming 2 days later. It was really interesting to see things from the intern side rather than the student side. I have loved being an intern so far. I love the chance to have meaningful conversations with the students I meet and to encourage them to reach for their potential. It's been hard at times to refrain from jumping in and showing them how to do things. I have to keep reminding myself that leadership is a process and that I had to go through that exact same process they are now experiencing and that I've grown so much from it. It's been really neat to watch students grow on the trips. As they are challenged, they really step up and take ownership. You can see the confidence build in them throughout the week, and they become more vulnerable and spiritually aware. Now, obviously, this doesn't happen with every student. But it is so encouraging to watch the students who do grow a ton. That's one of the most rewarding aspects of my work: seeing students realize that God has created them to fulfill his will in their own unique way, and that by resting on his power they can do GREAT things, even though they are young.
We got some good work accomplished. Painted the back patio area of the church, so it looks very nice now. Also painted the front steps and sidewalk with a sealant so that the rain wouldn't deteriorate it. Built a retaining wall around the basketball court because all the dirt has been running off and eroding, so we were able to do something to help them keep it from washing away. The kids in the Navajo Nation LOVE basketball, so that court is a huge ministry area for them. We also did some concrete pours to help with water runoff so that the sidewalks wouldn't get muddy and dangerous and so that the foundation wouldn't erode from runoff. Our final project the very last day on the worksite was to pour the foundation for a new church about 12 miles away from where we had been working. It was so physically intense.. we had to hand-mix over 50 batches of concrete in 4 hours, but we did it! It's truly amazing to know that thanks to some of our work, there will be a church soon in an area that is hugely unreached and broken and deeply in need of the Gospel message.
The two weeks of VBS were also very fun. Getting to know some really, really sweet little kids was so fun, and to watch their faces light up as they got in the vans to come was so heart-warming. A lot of them really don't have that much to entertain them. There are a lot of absent or abusive parents in this area, and SO much poverty. It really feels like you're in a different world out there. So a lot of these kids just want to get away from their houses for awhile, and we were able to provide them with a safe, fun escape where they got to be surrounded with Christ's love, which they may never experience at home.
Overall, my time in the Navajo Nation was extremely challenging and definitely stretched me. I'm still trying to process a lot of what God taught me and what he's just beginning to work on in me. I have a few days at home before my next trip, so I'm hoping to just get to spend some alone time and listen to the Lord for awhile.
I currently have a HUGE prayer request: My last day on the worksite, I started out with a cough that only intensified with the cement dust and sand flying everywhere, and I ended up losing my voice for the most part. I thought everything would improve once I got home, but I've felt really sick the past two days. Wedding festivities begin Thursday, and the wedding is Saturday, so I would really love to get well before that so I can fully enjoy it and participate in everything. Also, on Sunday I fly to Montana and we start hiking on Monday, so I would really love for my body to have a lot of rest and refreshment before all that starts. So if you could just pray for healing and renewal, I would really appreciate it. Thanks guys!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Leavin' on a Jet Plane
Well.. I am just about 14 hours away from departure to Chicago and feeling all sorts of emotion.
I am so excited to meet the other interns and staff and to reconnect with those I already know. I am grateful that I'm leaving the heat of Houston for some nice, cool weather in Chicago and Wisconsin. Even Arizona will be better than this humid heat. However, I am a little sad to be leaving my family and friends for pretty much the entire summer. I am going to miss my pillow and bed and the comforts of a lazy summer at home.
BUT.. I am so ready for the adventures of this summer. I don't feel prepared to be an intern. I don't feel old enough or wise enough or funny enough or spiritual enough...etc. And that is the great part. If I felt completely qualified and prepared for this summer, I don't think I would get anything out of it, but because I feel like I'm not qualified, I have a feeling God will be able to do some cool work in my heart. What could be better than that?
I do have a few prayer requests if you could take just a moment out of your day to lift up a quick prayer:
- Safe flight to Chicago
- Safe drive for everyone to training in Wisconsin
- Effective training: May 29th - June 2nd
- Bonding between all the staff and interns
- Safe drive from Chicago to Arizona (around June 4th or 5th)
- Energy, strength, preparation for me, trip leader Dave Williams, and intern James Futrell as we prepare for our first team to arrive June 6th
- Transformation to happen in the lives of both the staff and students we meet
I'll will try and update as often as possible! Thanks for the support.
I am so excited to meet the other interns and staff and to reconnect with those I already know. I am grateful that I'm leaving the heat of Houston for some nice, cool weather in Chicago and Wisconsin. Even Arizona will be better than this humid heat. However, I am a little sad to be leaving my family and friends for pretty much the entire summer. I am going to miss my pillow and bed and the comforts of a lazy summer at home.
BUT.. I am so ready for the adventures of this summer. I don't feel prepared to be an intern. I don't feel old enough or wise enough or funny enough or spiritual enough...etc. And that is the great part. If I felt completely qualified and prepared for this summer, I don't think I would get anything out of it, but because I feel like I'm not qualified, I have a feeling God will be able to do some cool work in my heart. What could be better than that?
I do have a few prayer requests if you could take just a moment out of your day to lift up a quick prayer:
- Safe flight to Chicago
- Safe drive for everyone to training in Wisconsin
- Effective training: May 29th - June 2nd
- Bonding between all the staff and interns
- Safe drive from Chicago to Arizona (around June 4th or 5th)
- Energy, strength, preparation for me, trip leader Dave Williams, and intern James Futrell as we prepare for our first team to arrive June 6th
- Transformation to happen in the lives of both the staff and students we meet
I'll will try and update as often as possible! Thanks for the support.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
#2, #11, #84 - Check
It has been quite awhile since I last wrote. So much has happened in this month, including the fact that my first year as a college student is completely done! It's weird but nice at the same time.
In that month several of my 101 in 1001 things have been accomplished, but I just haven't had time until now to blog about them.
#2: Attend a Baylor Baseball game
The last day of classes my friend Lyndi invited me to go to a baseball game with her and her roommate Julie. I thought it would be a great way to celebrate the end of class/beginning of finals. We played against UT and lost, but it was a good game nevertheless and I had a ton of fun. I have been so blessed with wonderful friends at Baylor.
#11: Find a church
After many, many months of searching I've finally picked a church that seems to be a great fit. It has been an interesting journey as I've visited Baptist, Lutheran, Presbyterian, nondenominational, liturgical, and more in my search. I have come to a new appreciation of each person's method of worship, and have learned a lot more about what specifically I like in a church. Highland Baptist is the one I picked, and I'm so excited to get involved in a small group and serve team next year.
#84: Go to career counseling
I went to three sessions in order to complete my counseling. Through these sessions, I determined what I was looking for in a job, what my personality type was, what my strengths were, etc. By the time the final session came around I felt a lot more confident about what I want to do with my life. I want to either work for a non-profit organization or be a full-time missionary.. or something that combines the two in some way. I want to work with the lost and hurting. I want to help be part of the solution to some of the pain in the world. That is where my passion lies and I am happy that I've finally allowed myself to realize that. So I'm excited to see what opportunities God places in my life in these next few years!
In that month several of my 101 in 1001 things have been accomplished, but I just haven't had time until now to blog about them.
#2: Attend a Baylor Baseball game
The last day of classes my friend Lyndi invited me to go to a baseball game with her and her roommate Julie. I thought it would be a great way to celebrate the end of class/beginning of finals. We played against UT and lost, but it was a good game nevertheless and I had a ton of fun. I have been so blessed with wonderful friends at Baylor.
#11: Find a church
After many, many months of searching I've finally picked a church that seems to be a great fit. It has been an interesting journey as I've visited Baptist, Lutheran, Presbyterian, nondenominational, liturgical, and more in my search. I have come to a new appreciation of each person's method of worship, and have learned a lot more about what specifically I like in a church. Highland Baptist is the one I picked, and I'm so excited to get involved in a small group and serve team next year.
#84: Go to career counseling
I went to three sessions in order to complete my counseling. Through these sessions, I determined what I was looking for in a job, what my personality type was, what my strengths were, etc. By the time the final session came around I felt a lot more confident about what I want to do with my life. I want to either work for a non-profit organization or be a full-time missionary.. or something that combines the two in some way. I want to work with the lost and hurting. I want to help be part of the solution to some of the pain in the world. That is where my passion lies and I am happy that I've finally allowed myself to realize that. So I'm excited to see what opportunities God places in my life in these next few years!
Monday, April 5, 2010
Dancing with the Daffodils
I had the most beautiful drive back to Waco today. I can't even begin to describe the wonderful colors of the flowers, the fresh green of the grass and trees, or the crisp blue of the sky. So I will leave it up to Mr. Wordsworth to express the sentiments in my heart:
I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.
The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed--and gazed--but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.
-William Wordsworth, 1804
I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.
The waves beside them danced; but they
Out-did the sparkling waves in glee:
A poet could not but be gay,
In such a jocund company:
I gazed--and gazed--but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:
For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.
-William Wordsworth, 1804
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Christ is Risen!
A hymn for this Resurrection Sunday:
Christ the Lord is risen today, Alleluia!
Earth and heaven in chorus say, Alleluia!
Raise your joys and triumphs high, Alleluia!
Sing, ye heavens, and earth reply, Alleluia!
Love's redeeming work is done, Alleluia!
Fought the fight, the battle won, Alleluia!
Death in vain forbids him rise, Alleluia!
Christ has opened paradise, Alleluia!
Lives again our glorious King, Alleluia!
Where, O death, is now thy sting? Alleluia!
Once he died our souls to save, Alleluia!
Where's thy victory, boasting grave? Alleluia!
Soar we now where Christ has led, Alleluia!
Following our exalted Head, Alleluia!
Made like him, like him we rise, Alleluia!
Ours the cross, the grave, the skies, Alleluia!
Hail the Lord of earth and heaven, Alleluia!
Praise to thee by both be given, Alleluia!
Thee we greet triumphant now, Alleluia!
Hail the Resurrection, thou, Alleluia!
King of glory, soul of bliss, Alleluia!
Everlasting life is this, Alleluia!
Thee to know, thy power to prove, Alleluia!
Thus to sing, and thus to love, Alleluia!
-Charles Wesley, 1739
Christ the Lord is risen today, Alleluia!
Earth and heaven in chorus say, Alleluia!
Raise your joys and triumphs high, Alleluia!
Sing, ye heavens, and earth reply, Alleluia!
Love's redeeming work is done, Alleluia!
Fought the fight, the battle won, Alleluia!
Death in vain forbids him rise, Alleluia!
Christ has opened paradise, Alleluia!
Lives again our glorious King, Alleluia!
Where, O death, is now thy sting? Alleluia!
Once he died our souls to save, Alleluia!
Where's thy victory, boasting grave? Alleluia!
Soar we now where Christ has led, Alleluia!
Following our exalted Head, Alleluia!
Made like him, like him we rise, Alleluia!
Ours the cross, the grave, the skies, Alleluia!
Hail the Lord of earth and heaven, Alleluia!
Praise to thee by both be given, Alleluia!
Thee we greet triumphant now, Alleluia!
Hail the Resurrection, thou, Alleluia!
King of glory, soul of bliss, Alleluia!
Everlasting life is this, Alleluia!
Thee to know, thy power to prove, Alleluia!
Thus to sing, and thus to love, Alleluia!
-Charles Wesley, 1739
Sunday, March 21, 2010
#62 Check
#62 Visit the Mayborn
(See my 101 in 1001 list here)
The Mayborn Museum is on the edge of Baylor's campus, and I have been meaning to visit. My wonderful little sister was in town, and since the weather decided to be gross and rainy and cold, we decided to do something inside and go check it out.
Though I wouldn't say that the Mayborn is the most interesting museum in the world, Allie and I found plenty to amuse ourselves with. It was so fun to just be silly and hang out with my sister.
(See my 101 in 1001 list here)
The Mayborn Museum is on the edge of Baylor's campus, and I have been meaning to visit. My wonderful little sister was in town, and since the weather decided to be gross and rainy and cold, we decided to do something inside and go check it out.
Though I wouldn't say that the Mayborn is the most interesting museum in the world, Allie and I found plenty to amuse ourselves with. It was so fun to just be silly and hang out with my sister.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
#73 - Check
Today I was able to cross off one of my 101 things.
#73 Volunteer at a soup kitchen
I went with my wonderful friend Claire Aufhammer (http://lifelovejustice.blogspot.com/) to the Salvation Army soup kitchen here in Waco.
Claire has started volunteering here every week, and I finally decided to check it out this week. It was such a cool experience. I didn't really do a ton of work, but I did pass out drinks and refills and did a little bit of cleanup at the end. Next time (yes next time), I'm going to try and actually serve the food.
This soup kitchen is such a cool place because of the guy who runs it, Stanley Goode, or "Red." He is hilarious and always cracking jokes, and you can tell he has such a heart for the homeless. And it seems that all the people who come eat regularly really like him. Even more amazing is how much work and service goes into this. This location serves lunch and dinner EVERY day, even holidays. That's 365 days of two good, full meals for the hungry in Waco. HOW INCREDIBLE!
I am DEFINITELY going to go back and serve. I just love doing something for other people, and I'm really looking forward to forming relationships with those who come as well as the others who serve there.
Claire and I
"Red" and Brittney Griner.. oh yeah.. did I forget to mention that she was volunteering there today too? So crazy!
#73 Volunteer at a soup kitchen
I went with my wonderful friend Claire Aufhammer (http://lifelovejustice.blogspot.com/) to the Salvation Army soup kitchen here in Waco.
Claire has started volunteering here every week, and I finally decided to check it out this week. It was such a cool experience. I didn't really do a ton of work, but I did pass out drinks and refills and did a little bit of cleanup at the end. Next time (yes next time), I'm going to try and actually serve the food.
This soup kitchen is such a cool place because of the guy who runs it, Stanley Goode, or "Red." He is hilarious and always cracking jokes, and you can tell he has such a heart for the homeless. And it seems that all the people who come eat regularly really like him. Even more amazing is how much work and service goes into this. This location serves lunch and dinner EVERY day, even holidays. That's 365 days of two good, full meals for the hungry in Waco. HOW INCREDIBLE!
I am DEFINITELY going to go back and serve. I just love doing something for other people, and I'm really looking forward to forming relationships with those who come as well as the others who serve there.
Claire and I
"Red" and Brittney Griner.. oh yeah.. did I forget to mention that she was volunteering there today too? So crazy!
Friday, March 12, 2010
101 in 1001
I have been inspired by several other friends to start my own "101 in 1001" list. The way this works is that I have made a list of 101 things I would like to do in the next 1001 days. Some of the things are simple, some are ridiculous. I doubt that I will be able to accomplish every single one of them, but I have to at least try. I know that I'm more likely to do things if I have a list that I can check off. Plus, I have you guys to keep me accountable.
So here is my list. If you would like to join in any of these adventures or help me out with something, I would love your participation!
Starting date: March 13, 2010
Ending date: December 9, 2012
1. Attend a Baylor Basketball game
2. Attend a Baylor Baseball game - Completed 4/30/10
3. Take some friends to Cedar Point/Ohio
4. Visit a new country
5. Visit a new continent
6. Do missions work in a new country/continent
7. Read all of C.S. Lewis’s books
8. Study abroad
9. Go skydiving
10. Go camping or backpacking with friends
11. Find a church - "Completed" - Highland Baptist Church
12. Join a small group
13. Cook dinner for my family
14. Buy a nice camera
15. Visit 7 states I’ve never been to
16. Take a long road trip with friends
17. Go skiing
18. Go waterskiing
19. Take an applied music/piano class at Baylor
20. Intern with a non-profit organization
21. Intern at a church again
22. Do at least one intramural event at Baylor
23. Run a mile without stopping
24. Submit an article to The Pulse
25. Volunteer consistently in Waco
26. Visit/Volunteer at Missionaries of Charity in Dallas
27. Live in a house with a group of friends at Baylor
28. Fly by myself
29. Serve alongside a full-time missionary for a month
30. Sponsor a child
31. Paint a canvas for my room
32. Take artsy photos
33. Enlarge artsy photos and hang in my room
34. Go to a Passion conference
35. Find a “grown-up” doctor and dentist I like
36. Donate blood
37. Make Dean’s List every semester
38. Go on a trip just with my sister
39. Nanny for a family
40. Learn a new recipe
41. Become fluent in Spanish
42. Attend Vertical Ministries consistently
43. Apply to grad school/seminary
44. Read the books of the Bible I’ve never read before
45. Memorize a book of the Bible
46. Spend a day in COMPLETE solitude
47. Read a book that’s not for my reading list
48. Go kayaking or canoeing
49. Spend a day taking pictures all around Waco
50. Learn how to play guitar well
51. Read a book of poetry
52. Write a letter to someone every week for 2 months
53. Fulfill my maid of honor duties :)
54. Post a blog review about a book I’ve read
55. Visit Eleni in Greece
56. Write a poem
57. Journal at least twice a week, every week for 3 months
58. Write a letter to myself to open when I graduate
59. See a drive-in movie
60. Sleep under the stars
61. Attend a play at Baylor
62. Visit the Mayborn - Completed 3/20/10
63. Go to Cameron Park Zoo
64. Learn how to use my telescope
65. Get a departmental scholarship
66. Become a Crane Scholar
67. Be invited to join Phi Beta Kappa
68. Lend money to a micro-financing group
69. Vote
70. Completely clean and organize my room/closet.. donate everything I don’t need
71. Go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter
72. Take the GRE
73. Volunteer at a soup kitchen - Completed 3/17/10
74. Go to the Grand Canyon
75. Go to Yellowstone National Park
76. Go to Antarctica
77. Go on a cruise
78. Have a picnic
79. Translate an entire book of the Bible from Greek
80. Get up and watch the sun rise once a week for a month
81. Go to the 2012 Summer Olympics in London
82. Wake up an hour early every day for a week to pray
83. Apply to/join BRH
84. Go to career counseling - Completed 4/29/10
85. Take dancing lessons
86. Visit Morgan in Alabama
87. Translate a book from Latin to English
88. Visit Claire and Brent at Texas State
89. See the Northern Lights
90. Stay in a hostel
91. Go backpacking through Europe
92. Visit an Eastern Orthodox Church
93. Attend a Roman Catholic Mass
94. Sing karaoke in public
95. Watch a foreign film
96. Get a massage
97. Buy TOMS
98. Call Bill once a month
99. Join a club at Baylor
100. Take a trip just with my mom
101. Ring by Spring…. (JUST KIDDING!)
So here is my list. If you would like to join in any of these adventures or help me out with something, I would love your participation!
Starting date: March 13, 2010
Ending date: December 9, 2012
1. Attend a Baylor Basketball game
2. Attend a Baylor Baseball game - Completed 4/30/10
3. Take some friends to Cedar Point/Ohio
4. Visit a new country
5. Visit a new continent
6. Do missions work in a new country/continent
7. Read all of C.S. Lewis’s books
8. Study abroad
9. Go skydiving
10. Go camping or backpacking with friends
11. Find a church - "Completed" - Highland Baptist Church
12. Join a small group
13. Cook dinner for my family
14. Buy a nice camera
15. Visit 7 states I’ve never been to
16. Take a long road trip with friends
17. Go skiing
18. Go waterskiing
19. Take an applied music/piano class at Baylor
20. Intern with a non-profit organization
21. Intern at a church again
22. Do at least one intramural event at Baylor
23. Run a mile without stopping
24. Submit an article to The Pulse
25. Volunteer consistently in Waco
26. Visit/Volunteer at Missionaries of Charity in Dallas
27. Live in a house with a group of friends at Baylor
28. Fly by myself
29. Serve alongside a full-time missionary for a month
30. Sponsor a child
31. Paint a canvas for my room
32. Take artsy photos
33. Enlarge artsy photos and hang in my room
34. Go to a Passion conference
35. Find a “grown-up” doctor and dentist I like
36. Donate blood
37. Make Dean’s List every semester
38. Go on a trip just with my sister
39. Nanny for a family
40. Learn a new recipe
41. Become fluent in Spanish
42. Attend Vertical Ministries consistently
43. Apply to grad school/seminary
44. Read the books of the Bible I’ve never read before
45. Memorize a book of the Bible
46. Spend a day in COMPLETE solitude
47. Read a book that’s not for my reading list
48. Go kayaking or canoeing
49. Spend a day taking pictures all around Waco
50. Learn how to play guitar well
51. Read a book of poetry
52. Write a letter to someone every week for 2 months
53. Fulfill my maid of honor duties :)
54. Post a blog review about a book I’ve read
55. Visit Eleni in Greece
56. Write a poem
57. Journal at least twice a week, every week for 3 months
58. Write a letter to myself to open when I graduate
59. See a drive-in movie
60. Sleep under the stars
61. Attend a play at Baylor
62. Visit the Mayborn - Completed 3/20/10
63. Go to Cameron Park Zoo
64. Learn how to use my telescope
65. Get a departmental scholarship
66. Become a Crane Scholar
67. Be invited to join Phi Beta Kappa
68. Lend money to a micro-financing group
69. Vote
70. Completely clean and organize my room/closet.. donate everything I don’t need
71. Go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter
72. Take the GRE
73. Volunteer at a soup kitchen - Completed 3/17/10
74. Go to the Grand Canyon
75. Go to Yellowstone National Park
76. Go to Antarctica
77. Go on a cruise
78. Have a picnic
79. Translate an entire book of the Bible from Greek
80. Get up and watch the sun rise once a week for a month
81. Go to the 2012 Summer Olympics in London
82. Wake up an hour early every day for a week to pray
83. Apply to/join BRH
84. Go to career counseling - Completed 4/29/10
85. Take dancing lessons
86. Visit Morgan in Alabama
87. Translate a book from Latin to English
88. Visit Claire and Brent at Texas State
89. See the Northern Lights
90. Stay in a hostel
91. Go backpacking through Europe
92. Visit an Eastern Orthodox Church
93. Attend a Roman Catholic Mass
94. Sing karaoke in public
95. Watch a foreign film
96. Get a massage
97. Buy TOMS
98. Call Bill once a month
99. Join a club at Baylor
100. Take a trip just with my mom
101. Ring by Spring…. (JUST KIDDING!)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
The Beauty of Disappointment
For those of you who don't know, I'm interning this summer for LeaderTreks, a missions organization that is devoted to training students to be effective leaders. Check out their website to learn more. Also, join my Facebook group if you would like to support me this summer through prayer.
Anyways, I got my official site assignment yesterday. I will spend the first part of my internship in the Navajo Nation, fly back to Houston for my friend Claire's wedding, then spend the rest of my time in Montana. Honestly, I was disappointed at first. I have been to both those sites before and I was interested in going someplace new. Additionally, I had hoped not to be involved in a wilderness trip, but I got that thrown in as well. I vividly remember talking to my youth pastor about the different LT sites and I very determinedly told him I would never want to go back to the Navajo site. It wasn't that I had a bad trip. My team was wonderful, I learned a ton, and I know I grew through all of it. I just am not drawn to the site at all. I don't feel a particular burden for the Navajo people, and the hike was an enormous challenge for me this summer (if you want more on that story just let me know).
Montana is gorgeous and it is definitely the mission trip that changed my life and entire relationship with God. The hike was difficult, but not as bad as Navajo. But once again, I have never felt particularly called to the Cheyenne people. In fact, I was really, really hoping for a site in Latin America. I love that culture and I love being able to practice my Spanish. I knew, however, that with the wedding I was most likely going to be assigned state-side so that I could fly back and forth.
Since honesty is the best policy, you all get to know the truth: I had to take some time for myself so that I didn't get bitter about situations. My disappointment didn't last very long, but the fact that I even experienced a little of it left me feeling guilty. Who am I to question where God has placed me? How could I think that other events were "getting in the way" of my internship? Isn't everything working out to fulfill his plan?
After praying, journaling, and just spending some time in solitude, I can say with confidence that I AM SO INCREDIBLY EXCITED ABOUT THIS SUMMER!! I'm excited about the students that I will come in contact with, and the opportunity to encourage them. I'm thrilled to be working with other amazing staff members and just getting to share this whole summer experience with them. I'm so excited to see how God changes my life once again this summer. I'm looking forward to experiencing the amazing beauty of nature and seeing God's handprints throughout creation. AND.. I can't wait to see the amazing stars!!!
I have already been able to see God's hand in all of this. I have almost all the equipment that I will need this summer since I have been to these sites before. That will be a huge financial relief since I still have several plane tickets to purchase. Additionally, I have two good friends who really enjoy hiking, so I have people in my life who will be able to help me prepare. Finally, I just started reading Dante's Purgatorio for my Great Texts class and it's all about a climb to the top of the mountain of Purgatory in order to purge his soul of sin so he can be with God in paradise. Talk about inspiration!! I'll just pretend to be Dante while I climb... and maybe sing some Miley Cyrus... or not.
So, despite my initial disappointment (all triggered by selfishness), I am so excited about this summer and about where I will be. And I think this quick instance of disappointment will make this summer all the more memorable and incredible. I can't wait to see what happens!!
Pictures from Montana, Honduras, and the Navajo Nation
Anyways, I got my official site assignment yesterday. I will spend the first part of my internship in the Navajo Nation, fly back to Houston for my friend Claire's wedding, then spend the rest of my time in Montana. Honestly, I was disappointed at first. I have been to both those sites before and I was interested in going someplace new. Additionally, I had hoped not to be involved in a wilderness trip, but I got that thrown in as well. I vividly remember talking to my youth pastor about the different LT sites and I very determinedly told him I would never want to go back to the Navajo site. It wasn't that I had a bad trip. My team was wonderful, I learned a ton, and I know I grew through all of it. I just am not drawn to the site at all. I don't feel a particular burden for the Navajo people, and the hike was an enormous challenge for me this summer (if you want more on that story just let me know).
Montana is gorgeous and it is definitely the mission trip that changed my life and entire relationship with God. The hike was difficult, but not as bad as Navajo. But once again, I have never felt particularly called to the Cheyenne people. In fact, I was really, really hoping for a site in Latin America. I love that culture and I love being able to practice my Spanish. I knew, however, that with the wedding I was most likely going to be assigned state-side so that I could fly back and forth.
Since honesty is the best policy, you all get to know the truth: I had to take some time for myself so that I didn't get bitter about situations. My disappointment didn't last very long, but the fact that I even experienced a little of it left me feeling guilty. Who am I to question where God has placed me? How could I think that other events were "getting in the way" of my internship? Isn't everything working out to fulfill his plan?
After praying, journaling, and just spending some time in solitude, I can say with confidence that I AM SO INCREDIBLY EXCITED ABOUT THIS SUMMER!! I'm excited about the students that I will come in contact with, and the opportunity to encourage them. I'm thrilled to be working with other amazing staff members and just getting to share this whole summer experience with them. I'm so excited to see how God changes my life once again this summer. I'm looking forward to experiencing the amazing beauty of nature and seeing God's handprints throughout creation. AND.. I can't wait to see the amazing stars!!!
I have already been able to see God's hand in all of this. I have almost all the equipment that I will need this summer since I have been to these sites before. That will be a huge financial relief since I still have several plane tickets to purchase. Additionally, I have two good friends who really enjoy hiking, so I have people in my life who will be able to help me prepare. Finally, I just started reading Dante's Purgatorio for my Great Texts class and it's all about a climb to the top of the mountain of Purgatory in order to purge his soul of sin so he can be with God in paradise. Talk about inspiration!! I'll just pretend to be Dante while I climb... and maybe sing some Miley Cyrus... or not.
So, despite my initial disappointment (all triggered by selfishness), I am so excited about this summer and about where I will be. And I think this quick instance of disappointment will make this summer all the more memorable and incredible. I can't wait to see what happens!!
Pictures from Montana, Honduras, and the Navajo Nation
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
In the Light
I love DC Talk's song, "In the Light" which speaks of living life in the light of God, since he is the light. This imagery of light versus darkness can be found in 1 John 1:5-7: "God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin."
I have always enjoyed the contrast of light and dark in relation to God and the world, but after writing a paper on Boethius I am even more enthralled by the imagery. I HIGHLY encourage you to read Boethius at some point.. he has so much truth to offer!
My paper explored a poem in Boethius's Consolation of Philosophy that heavily uses the imagery of light to explain that true happiness is only found in God. Reflected light represents the things of this world that appear to bring happiness to man, but in reality are only shadows of the true happiness found in God. One line states that the light of God is the "splendor that guides and moves the heavens." What a wonderful description! In the end, the poem shows that man must develop the ability to distinguish between the reflected light and the light of God. In my own life I need to recognize that though these things of the world can bring comfort and entertainment, ultimately I can never be fulfilled/happy (eudaimonia for all you Greek scholars) unless I recognize that knowledge of God brings that fulfillment to my life.
I don't know about you, but as for me, I want to be in the light.
I have always enjoyed the contrast of light and dark in relation to God and the world, but after writing a paper on Boethius I am even more enthralled by the imagery. I HIGHLY encourage you to read Boethius at some point.. he has so much truth to offer!
My paper explored a poem in Boethius's Consolation of Philosophy that heavily uses the imagery of light to explain that true happiness is only found in God. Reflected light represents the things of this world that appear to bring happiness to man, but in reality are only shadows of the true happiness found in God. One line states that the light of God is the "splendor that guides and moves the heavens." What a wonderful description! In the end, the poem shows that man must develop the ability to distinguish between the reflected light and the light of God. In my own life I need to recognize that though these things of the world can bring comfort and entertainment, ultimately I can never be fulfilled/happy (eudaimonia for all you Greek scholars) unless I recognize that knowledge of God brings that fulfillment to my life.
I don't know about you, but as for me, I want to be in the light.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Middle Ground
This is a good article for both evangelical conservatives and secular liberals to read:
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/02/28/opinion/28kristof.html
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/02/28/opinion/28kristof.html
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Hello Again
I am saying hello to Facebook once again. It's not that I gave up on staying away from it, I just think that I have learned what I needed to know from my fast.
Facebook really is a good tool to stay in touch with people, plan events, share stories, and I have missed out on that. It's been hard to plan a get-together without the convenience of mass-messaging everyone. Also, my internship has a group for all the interns to get to know each other, so I feel like I would really miss out on some good conversations and encouragement if I weren't a part of that.
But no worries, I will not be wasting time sitting around on Facebook all day. It will just be quick check-ins.
Just thought I should explain real quickly why I will be popping up in your news feed once again.
Facebook really is a good tool to stay in touch with people, plan events, share stories, and I have missed out on that. It's been hard to plan a get-together without the convenience of mass-messaging everyone. Also, my internship has a group for all the interns to get to know each other, so I feel like I would really miss out on some good conversations and encouragement if I weren't a part of that.
But no worries, I will not be wasting time sitting around on Facebook all day. It will just be quick check-ins.
Just thought I should explain real quickly why I will be popping up in your news feed once again.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Raven and Lily
Please, please, please check out this website and watch the video on the home page: http://www.ravenandlily.com/
Raven and Lily is an awesome organization. They are a fair-trade company and sell eco-friendly, fashionable items made by women who are in poverty. They help teach these women job skills and give them the opportunity for a better life.
Kirsten Dickerson is a co-founder of the organization and I had the wonderful opportunity today of meeting and her husband Brandon, who is a film director and has done music videos for Switchfoot, Jonas Brothers, and many others. They are an incredible couple who passionately live out their faith. They are also friends of my youth pastor and his wife, and that is how I got connected with them.
Both Kirsten and Brandon attended Baylor, and they are back in Waco for a bit to take care of Kirsten's mother. While here, Kirsten continues to promote Raven and Lily. Today there was a trunk show of their merchandise at Common Grounds, our awesome local coffee shop. I was able to help volunteer for a bit by setting up merchandise and helping customers. It was such a cool experience to work with people who are doing something to change the world, and selling really adorable things in the process. I got a really cool bag that was made out of a recycled sari from a woman in India. Raven and Lily is a great picture of how God wants to use each of our talents to fulfill his mission. Kirsten's talent is design, and she gives this gift back to God by using it to help the poor.
I am really looking forward to getting to know this couple even more and to watching Raven and Lily help even more women across the world. I highly encourage you to check out this organization. It is such a cool one to support, and they sell such cute stuff (as I have already said many times in this post, it's just so true!) Just think, you could buy an adorable gift for someone, and in the process you could help support a woman who is searching for a better life.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
It is well
When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life,
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul.
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul
This afternoon, I overheard one of my friends playing this song on the piano. Instantly the words popped into my mind and I have not been able to get them out of my head (which is not a bad thing in the least). I LOVE this hymn. I love the feeling of this hymn. And I love the story behind this hymn.
I have not been through such intense trials. My current worries about class pale in comparison to what the Staffords endured, and what so many other people in the world go through every day. This hymn is a reality check for me. It is so easy to get caught up in daily stress, especially when immersed in a culture that places such a high emphasis on "success." But the majesty of this hymn is that no matter what happens, our souls are well when they are at rest with God. Christ has triumphed; Satan is defeated. Our sin is nailed to that cross, ALL of our sin. "The sky, not the grave, is our goal." Look to God for fulfillment. The world offers a mere shadow of the rich life God can bring.
God, no matter what stress is in our lives, no matter what pain we deal with, no matter what sin we struggle with, grant us the assurance of our fulfillment in you. Teach us to truly say with all our hearts "IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL!"
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.
Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!
For me, be it Christ, be it Christ hence to live:
If Jordan above me shall roll,
No pang shall be mine, for in death as in life,
Thou wilt whisper Thy peace to my soul.
But Lord, 'tis for Thee, for Thy coming we wait,
The sky, not the grave, is our goal;
Oh, trump of the angel! Oh, voice of the Lord!
Blessed hope, blessed rest of my soul.
And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul
This afternoon, I overheard one of my friends playing this song on the piano. Instantly the words popped into my mind and I have not been able to get them out of my head (which is not a bad thing in the least). I LOVE this hymn. I love the feeling of this hymn. And I love the story behind this hymn.
I have not been through such intense trials. My current worries about class pale in comparison to what the Staffords endured, and what so many other people in the world go through every day. This hymn is a reality check for me. It is so easy to get caught up in daily stress, especially when immersed in a culture that places such a high emphasis on "success." But the majesty of this hymn is that no matter what happens, our souls are well when they are at rest with God. Christ has triumphed; Satan is defeated. Our sin is nailed to that cross, ALL of our sin. "The sky, not the grave, is our goal." Look to God for fulfillment. The world offers a mere shadow of the rich life God can bring.
God, no matter what stress is in our lives, no matter what pain we deal with, no matter what sin we struggle with, grant us the assurance of our fulfillment in you. Teach us to truly say with all our hearts "IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL!"
Sunday, February 21, 2010
We are but dust
It has been a month and a few days since I deactivated Facebook, and I must say it has been such a freeing experience! Without the distraction of my Facebook addiction, friendships have flourished, involvement in activities has increased, and procrastination has decreased (most of the time!)
Though a lot of good has come out of this whole thing, there are some downsides. I realized that I have an extremely addictive personality. When Facebook wasn't there to feed my addiction, I looked for something else to fill it, and that turned to reading blogs. You can ask any of my friends and they will tell you how often I reference something I read on some blog I found. While I think blogs are great things, my obsession went a little too far.
When I realized all this, a hard thought struck me: Why doesn't this obsession take hold of me for things of God? I haven't tried to fill my time with reading His word or praying. It wasn't necessarily Facebook that got in my way, but rather my tendency to fill my time with things that weren't drawing me closer to God.
In the midst of pondering this thought, Ash Wednesday arrived. I attended a beautiful service at Dayspring Baptist and was powerfully reminded that each one of us is made of dust. What a scary thing thought! But what a beautiful thing when we consider how deeply God loves us, even in our weak state.
I want to know this God who chooses to love me, someone who has nothing to offer. I mess up so much. I make terrible decisions. But still he loves me. How could I possibly be distracted from a love like that?!
So rather than giving something up for Lent, I am going to try to gain something instead: daily time with the one who loves me more than I could ever imagine.
Though a lot of good has come out of this whole thing, there are some downsides. I realized that I have an extremely addictive personality. When Facebook wasn't there to feed my addiction, I looked for something else to fill it, and that turned to reading blogs. You can ask any of my friends and they will tell you how often I reference something I read on some blog I found. While I think blogs are great things, my obsession went a little too far.
When I realized all this, a hard thought struck me: Why doesn't this obsession take hold of me for things of God? I haven't tried to fill my time with reading His word or praying. It wasn't necessarily Facebook that got in my way, but rather my tendency to fill my time with things that weren't drawing me closer to God.
In the midst of pondering this thought, Ash Wednesday arrived. I attended a beautiful service at Dayspring Baptist and was powerfully reminded that each one of us is made of dust. What a scary thing thought! But what a beautiful thing when we consider how deeply God loves us, even in our weak state.
I want to know this God who chooses to love me, someone who has nothing to offer. I mess up so much. I make terrible decisions. But still he loves me. How could I possibly be distracted from a love like that?!
So rather than giving something up for Lent, I am going to try to gain something instead: daily time with the one who loves me more than I could ever imagine.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Mood Ring
Relient K would say I am definitely in need of a mood ring. It has been a day full of shifting emotions.
I was stressed and anxious about the workload for the next few days.
I was excessively bored in Christian Heritage relearning material from last semester.
I was thoroughly interested in the readings for Mythology.
I felt inadequate in my understanding of Boethius.
I was energized by Zumba.
I felt blessed by the great friendships in my life and grateful for the people I have grown even closer to recently.
I was absolutely ecstatic about translating verses from my brand-new Greek New Testament :)
But even more than the above listed, several thoughts stuck with me the whole day.
On the way to class this morning, I had a "why in the world am I a Classics major?" moment followed quickly by a "what the heck am I doing with my life?" moment. I started thinking through careers I could possibly have, and I felt either completely apathetic or completely inadequate in regards to every single one. I don't want to get stuck doing something that seems appealing but is ultimately unfulfilling. I want to make sure I'm doing something that will have a lasting impact in people's lives. I don't want to get jaded or become too focused on material gain or worldly renown (thanks for the reminder Boethius). So it's definitely been a day of reevaluating my passions, burdens, talents and calling. I have yet to come anywhere close to a conclusion, and I know I'm only a freshman so I have time to figure it out, but I worry about it nonetheless.
The other thing that remained with me all day was Haiti. My heart bleeds for the people affected, and I wish that in addition to money I could give of myself. Today was one of those days that I wished I had some sort of interest in medicine. Doctors and nurses have the opportunity to help people so much and in such a tangible way. They are the ones down in Haiti right now giving all their energy to heal those who are suffering. I feel so small and unimportant in comparison to this. What gift do I have that could possibly bless people? I wish I could travel down there, but I know I have absolutely nothing to offer.
For now I will just have to learn to pray faithfully.
P.S. PLEASE check out this blog by missionaries in Haiti. It is full of heart-wrenching stories, and shows such hope amid the devastation.
I was stressed and anxious about the workload for the next few days.
I was excessively bored in Christian Heritage relearning material from last semester.
I was thoroughly interested in the readings for Mythology.
I felt inadequate in my understanding of Boethius.
I was energized by Zumba.
I felt blessed by the great friendships in my life and grateful for the people I have grown even closer to recently.
I was absolutely ecstatic about translating verses from my brand-new Greek New Testament :)
But even more than the above listed, several thoughts stuck with me the whole day.
On the way to class this morning, I had a "why in the world am I a Classics major?" moment followed quickly by a "what the heck am I doing with my life?" moment. I started thinking through careers I could possibly have, and I felt either completely apathetic or completely inadequate in regards to every single one. I don't want to get stuck doing something that seems appealing but is ultimately unfulfilling. I want to make sure I'm doing something that will have a lasting impact in people's lives. I don't want to get jaded or become too focused on material gain or worldly renown (thanks for the reminder Boethius). So it's definitely been a day of reevaluating my passions, burdens, talents and calling. I have yet to come anywhere close to a conclusion, and I know I'm only a freshman so I have time to figure it out, but I worry about it nonetheless.
The other thing that remained with me all day was Haiti. My heart bleeds for the people affected, and I wish that in addition to money I could give of myself. Today was one of those days that I wished I had some sort of interest in medicine. Doctors and nurses have the opportunity to help people so much and in such a tangible way. They are the ones down in Haiti right now giving all their energy to heal those who are suffering. I feel so small and unimportant in comparison to this. What gift do I have that could possibly bless people? I wish I could travel down there, but I know I have absolutely nothing to offer.
For now I will just have to learn to pray faithfully.
P.S. PLEASE check out this blog by missionaries in Haiti. It is full of heart-wrenching stories, and shows such hope amid the devastation.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I Have Decided to Follow Jesus
This hymn has been on repeat in my mind the past few days. Unfortunately I had a hard time finding any non-cheesy versions on youtube to share with you. Phil Wickham has a nice rendition on his album "Singalong"
I think the simple repetition and sincerity of this is what gets me every time. There is no desire of "turning back" to the emptiness of worldly things once you've experienced the fullness of life in Christ. Seriously.
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.
Will you decide now to follow Jesus?
Will you decide now to follow Jesus?
Will you decide now to follow Jesus?
No turning back, no turning back
I think the simple repetition and sincerity of this is what gets me every time. There is no desire of "turning back" to the emptiness of worldly things once you've experienced the fullness of life in Christ. Seriously.
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
I have decided to follow Jesus;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
Though I may wonder, I still will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
The world behind me, the cross before me;
No turning back, no turning back.
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
Though none go with me, still I will follow;
No turning back, no turning back.
Will you decide now to follow Jesus?
Will you decide now to follow Jesus?
Will you decide now to follow Jesus?
No turning back, no turning back
Monday, January 18, 2010
Facebookers Anonymous
Hello. My name is Sydney Drain and I am a Facebook addict.
Step 1 is admitting your problem, right? Well here is my problem: I am completely obsessed with Facebook. It's been easy to justify my addiction by saying that it's such a great tool for staying in touch with people, but in reality that's just another excuse. I have allowed Facebook to hinder me from becoming a better person. It has made me into a busybody, constantly checking up on everyone's status updates and pictures from the latest adventure. It has allowed me to pretend I'm maintaing friendships as long as I post on someone's wall every once in awhile. I've become extremely judgmental (more so than I was to begin with) just by checking out people's pictures and comments.
Worst of all, it has fed my selfish attitude of seeking attention and approval from humanity. I try to think of witty status updates so that I can get a lot of notifications and post tons of silly, pointless pictures so that I will show up on others' newsfeeds. Paul writes in Galatians 1:10, "Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." I need to spend more time focusing on seeking God's approval, for that is the only thing that will ever truly satisfy me. A compliment can brighten my day and keep me going for a bit, but that will eventually fade. In the end, the only sustaining thing in my life is the knowledge that my Father in heaven loves me deeply and thinks I'm worth saving. Psalm 139:18 says that God's thoughts about me are more numerous than the grains of sand. Can you even imagine that?!
But I have lost sight of that and I know I need to refocus. Therefore, I am saying goodbye to Facebook for the next few months. It is my deepest hope that I will now be challenged to fill my free time in God's presence rather than creeping on profiles. Through that time I pray the Holy Spirit will work in my heart and help me to become a more thoughtful, generous, patient person and will continue to transform me into the likeness of God. Additionally, I am going to work on being a better friend and asking the tough questions rather than settling for shallow conversation. Also, I am hoping that all this time away from the computer will challenge me to plug into some organizations and service groups so that I can give back to my community. And finally, I would like to learn how to stop procrastinating and start getting more done with my life. I waste way too much time every day.
So... there is my reasoning. I'm not expecting anyone else to follow in my footsteps, this is just a personal decision that I feel needs to happen.
I'm excited about what God has in store for this semester, and I'm looking forward to sharing that journey with you.
Step 1 is admitting your problem, right? Well here is my problem: I am completely obsessed with Facebook. It's been easy to justify my addiction by saying that it's such a great tool for staying in touch with people, but in reality that's just another excuse. I have allowed Facebook to hinder me from becoming a better person. It has made me into a busybody, constantly checking up on everyone's status updates and pictures from the latest adventure. It has allowed me to pretend I'm maintaing friendships as long as I post on someone's wall every once in awhile. I've become extremely judgmental (more so than I was to begin with) just by checking out people's pictures and comments.
Worst of all, it has fed my selfish attitude of seeking attention and approval from humanity. I try to think of witty status updates so that I can get a lot of notifications and post tons of silly, pointless pictures so that I will show up on others' newsfeeds. Paul writes in Galatians 1:10, "Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." I need to spend more time focusing on seeking God's approval, for that is the only thing that will ever truly satisfy me. A compliment can brighten my day and keep me going for a bit, but that will eventually fade. In the end, the only sustaining thing in my life is the knowledge that my Father in heaven loves me deeply and thinks I'm worth saving. Psalm 139:18 says that God's thoughts about me are more numerous than the grains of sand. Can you even imagine that?!
But I have lost sight of that and I know I need to refocus. Therefore, I am saying goodbye to Facebook for the next few months. It is my deepest hope that I will now be challenged to fill my free time in God's presence rather than creeping on profiles. Through that time I pray the Holy Spirit will work in my heart and help me to become a more thoughtful, generous, patient person and will continue to transform me into the likeness of God. Additionally, I am going to work on being a better friend and asking the tough questions rather than settling for shallow conversation. Also, I am hoping that all this time away from the computer will challenge me to plug into some organizations and service groups so that I can give back to my community. And finally, I would like to learn how to stop procrastinating and start getting more done with my life. I waste way too much time every day.
So... there is my reasoning. I'm not expecting anyone else to follow in my footsteps, this is just a personal decision that I feel needs to happen.
I'm excited about what God has in store for this semester, and I'm looking forward to sharing that journey with you.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Haiti
Just a quick note today.
Most of you know about the terrible earthquake that hit Haiti yesterday. Thousands are thought to be dead and there will be millions of dollars in damage. Haiti is already one of the poorest nations in the world, and it needs your help today.
Here are some pictures of the devastation.
This is such a great opportunity to give financially if the Lord has placed that on your heart. Pass up on buying those new CD's or go without Starbucks for a few weeks and donate to relief funds.
World Vision is an incredible organization involved in relief work, and I know any donations will be put to good use. Click here to donate.
Most of you know about the terrible earthquake that hit Haiti yesterday. Thousands are thought to be dead and there will be millions of dollars in damage. Haiti is already one of the poorest nations in the world, and it needs your help today.
Here are some pictures of the devastation.
This is such a great opportunity to give financially if the Lord has placed that on your heart. Pass up on buying those new CD's or go without Starbucks for a few weeks and donate to relief funds.
World Vision is an incredible organization involved in relief work, and I know any donations will be put to good use. Click here to donate.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Unsettled
My heart has been uneasy lately.
I first noticed it in the midst of a conversation where several people were complaining about not having as much luxury as they would like. Now in all fairness, I know that most of the conversation was in jest and in reality they are all extremely generous people and would say they have plenty of blessings in their lives.
But it really hit something in me and I can't get my heart to rest.
As I sit here at my private university typing away on my Mac listening to my nice ipod full of thousands of songs, I have to wonder, how often do I completely disregard the fact that I am one of the richest people in the world?
I complain so often about how much work I have to do and how hard this college thing is. Where is the gratitude for the enormous opportunity I've been given to receive an education of any sort?
There are people all over the world who live on less than a dollar a day. There are children who have no choice of going to school because they have to help feed their families. People die daily of malnutrition and lack of clean water. And I have just ignored all of that lately.
I'm not trying to make this a guilt trip, and I'm not telling you to sell everything you own and give it to the poor (although Jesus may tell you to do that anyways, he's done it many times before.. c.f. Matt. 19:21, also "The Life of St. Anthony" is great to read). I am, however, asking that we all take a step back and consider the rich blessings we have. And after you've considered them, give those blessings back to God and ask that he would work an appropriate response in your heart, whether that's donating money to a worthy cause, getting involved in an organization and giving of yourself and your time, or even praying for a particular group of people. Who knows what God will ask.
How wonderful it is that we have a God who does not look at outward appearances, but who considers the heart of man and who cares so deeply about each one of his children!
If you're looking for some good organizations:
- Water is Basic
- LeaderTreks
- World Vision
- Advent Conspiracy
- Compassion International
- Habitat for Humanity
Plus a ton of other awesome organizations that I'm not aware of. If you have any good organizations I would love to hear about them!
I first noticed it in the midst of a conversation where several people were complaining about not having as much luxury as they would like. Now in all fairness, I know that most of the conversation was in jest and in reality they are all extremely generous people and would say they have plenty of blessings in their lives.
But it really hit something in me and I can't get my heart to rest.
As I sit here at my private university typing away on my Mac listening to my nice ipod full of thousands of songs, I have to wonder, how often do I completely disregard the fact that I am one of the richest people in the world?
I complain so often about how much work I have to do and how hard this college thing is. Where is the gratitude for the enormous opportunity I've been given to receive an education of any sort?
There are people all over the world who live on less than a dollar a day. There are children who have no choice of going to school because they have to help feed their families. People die daily of malnutrition and lack of clean water. And I have just ignored all of that lately.
I'm not trying to make this a guilt trip, and I'm not telling you to sell everything you own and give it to the poor (although Jesus may tell you to do that anyways, he's done it many times before.. c.f. Matt. 19:21, also "The Life of St. Anthony" is great to read). I am, however, asking that we all take a step back and consider the rich blessings we have. And after you've considered them, give those blessings back to God and ask that he would work an appropriate response in your heart, whether that's donating money to a worthy cause, getting involved in an organization and giving of yourself and your time, or even praying for a particular group of people. Who knows what God will ask.
How wonderful it is that we have a God who does not look at outward appearances, but who considers the heart of man and who cares so deeply about each one of his children!
If you're looking for some good organizations:
- Water is Basic
- LeaderTreks
- World Vision
- Advent Conspiracy
- Compassion International
- Habitat for Humanity
Plus a ton of other awesome organizations that I'm not aware of. If you have any good organizations I would love to hear about them!
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Misconceptions
Much credit for this post must be given to the wonderful Claire Ackerman who shared this video with me: "White Man"
I have absolutely fallen in love with this video and the message it promotes (plus it's just so much fun to watch!).
How often do we attempt to describe God in our own terms? How many divisions in our churches occurred because arguments over these descriptions? How often do we accuse others of being godless because of their political beliefs or personal histories? How much hurt have we caused because of this?
I'm not going to go on a rant about how much damage I think certain groups and sects have caused, because that would just be adding fuel to the fire. I'm as much a part of the problem as everyone else. I stereotype. I'm judgmental. I'm intolerant. I have trouble loving my enemies.
But God is bigger than all of that. He's bigger than my opinions and my mistakes and I'm going to trust him to reveal his true character and will to me. Will you trust him to do the same for you?
I have absolutely fallen in love with this video and the message it promotes (plus it's just so much fun to watch!).
How often do we attempt to describe God in our own terms? How many divisions in our churches occurred because arguments over these descriptions? How often do we accuse others of being godless because of their political beliefs or personal histories? How much hurt have we caused because of this?
I'm not going to go on a rant about how much damage I think certain groups and sects have caused, because that would just be adding fuel to the fire. I'm as much a part of the problem as everyone else. I stereotype. I'm judgmental. I'm intolerant. I have trouble loving my enemies.
But God is bigger than all of that. He's bigger than my opinions and my mistakes and I'm going to trust him to reveal his true character and will to me. Will you trust him to do the same for you?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
What's in a Name?
"What's in a name? That which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet."
The great William Shakespeare penned these words centuries ago, yet he brings up an interesting question: What is it that's so important about a name? Each of us has one. Many of us girls dream up the perfect first-middle name combinations for our yet-to-be-born children. I think names are so important to us because we have the desire to be different, to really show our uniqueness. It reminds us that we're not just another person living life. We're individuals with our own personalities, histories, dramas and passions.
So we've established that names are important, and that's part of the reason that I've taken so long to even start a blog. I've struggled over what to call it because I didn't even know what the blog would really be about. But it's finally come to me... I want this to be an intellectually and spiritually stimulating blog. I don't boast any claims to deep insight, but I know that others have impacted me with their musings and advice, so I'm hoping that what little knowledge I have will be helpful to someone.
"In the Dust of My Rabbi" epitomizes what I'm trying to do with my life. The name comes from an ancient Jewish proverb that states "Follow the rabbi, drink in his words, and be covered with the dust of his feet." This proverb originated from the fact that many disciples would follow their rabbi (teacher) so closely that they would literally be covered in the dust he brushed up as he walked, and it was considered a huge honor to be able to get this close to the rabbi. This is how I desire to be with my Rabbi, Jesus Christ. I want to be right behind him and be absolutely coated in his dust.
In order to do this I know I need to learn how to love the Lord with all my heart, soul, mind and strength (Mark 12:30). I have made some resolutions (thank you 2010) and I'm going to use this blog to keep me accountable. I want to spend consistent time in the Word and I'm planning on using the SOAP method (Scripture, Observation, Application, and Prayer) and sharing any cool observation I get with you guys. I want to be in prayer daily and if you have any prayer requests please send them my way. I want to get solid doctrinal roots, so as I learn some really interesting things at Baylor I would love to share my thoughts with you. It is my opinion that learning and growing in faith happens best in a community, so I hope you can learn some from me and I'm sure I will be learning from you as well. And together, I think we can all come to a point of being covered in the dust of our Rabbi.
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